The one thing you hear in recovery is"one day at a time" and this becomes your motto your strength your normalcy. You are urge not to focus on the past or the future just to live in that day and recovery is your main focal point. To most this works and many do their very best to get as close to nailing it on the head as anyone can. i need to plan i need to have a goal farther off than just the nearest 24  hours. i only drive myself insane to think that ive come nearly six months feeling as if the first three months of sobriety was a dramatized version of a horror film wasnt enough to sit and get satisfaction from 24 hours. this beeing the hardest recovery from the the strongest deadliest drug ive never thought i would become i feel that this can only be the start of something greaater than i could read or see i   a movie. maybe just anxiety kicking in or findin its place in my not as twisted world as before. trying to find a hobby for someone who lifelong hobby was getting higher than the day before isnt as easy as doing the drugs thats for damn sure. things always seem to fall in place then while all i do now is trying to figure out who am i and what am i about. pretty simple questions you would think but this person i am is unknown to me. i still have that take no bullshit attitude but its directly towards everyday life not with the ones i use to let consume my life before. i watch more movies now but they are mostly older ones , ones that i remember growing up, GOONIE, MEDICINE MAN, GOOD FELLAS, WIZARD OF OZ and so on.