knowledge of my faith and addiction

Understanding my disease and growing in my faith has taken me well over 90 days. Some days its felt like hell months but the more time ive put into myself  i can honestly say this is the best ive ever understood anything and everything  ive ever felt or had lack of feeling for. Far too long ive coped or masked emotions that now i see most clear now. I can only move forward  rebuild a safe and loving relationship with my kids, family and my higher power. Along the way i felt sad that i was losing so called friends but now ive come to realize my true friends and how muchni love my kids and family. Addiction is a disease that noone will never understand until  i put forth the effort to learn and take accountability. Maybe this is my rough draft to something that will benefit others who felt the lonliness and self destruct i had for over half my- all i pray for is forgiveness and understanding that this second chance benefits those i love and those who loved me when i gave up on myself-